What am I becoming,
am I becoming a woman who puts others and things before herself so much that I forget who I am, and where my identity lies, we all want to be a supermom/wonderwoman, or at least I know I do.. but don't wonderwomen know what their passion in life is?
so am I becoming an uptight, empty, sad, unsure, and insecure woman by trying to be something God did not create me to be,
am I becoming this woman that makes everything look good on the outside, when my heart is bleeding on the inside because i did not take time for myself,
am I becoming this woman that is lost, because I did not take time for the things I love to do, because I feel selfish to think of me,
when really I need to do the things I love and am passionate about to become a wonderwoman to my family and friends.
so what do I love to do?
what do I not take time for that is hurting me?
how can I strengthen my relationships?
Doesn't it come down to laying myself down at the cross, if I die to self everyday and ask God to fill me up with His grace.
who and what is He going to show me, and am I ready to go forth and send His Light.
so I find myself asking to question- who does God want me to become?
and what will become of my family,
my friends, my hubby, and my baby girl, if I become who God wants me to become.
will I feel selfish taking the time for myself or will I come to realize that if I become what God wants me to be and do the things He has gifted me to do, everything will blossom!
that paints a beautiful picture....
that has been my struggle this week,
I am only one person..
I want to be a superwoman and help everyone out,
be a loving and supportive wife,
have my home clean and welcoming,
be the best mom and spend time with my daughter every minute I can,
work 2 days,
and in between the gaps do something for someone I love...
makes me tried just writing all that,,
so really, why do I think I have to have it all together on the outside, when I can't even breathe on the inside. it does not matter what I want, its not about me, but am I not missing the mark, when I'm empty, tired and worn out on the inside, how can I give people my all when, when I think I can do it all...(wow)
I want to become the woman God created me to be.
to become kind-real-careing-loving.
I want to become passionate about what I love to do.
to use the gifts God gave me, for His honor and glory.
to become a mom that is calm.
to become a friend, daughter, sister, mom and wife who is REAL.
who does things because its her gift.
who loves, cares, and speaks kind words.
because she is allowing God to work thru her..
to become real....
we love her so much!!
my amazing husband
our precious baby girl
have a blessed weekend!!
