livin with a purpose

Shattered....

my life the past few days has been interesting...

God has been revealing things to me in ways that I'm not sure how to take, and I'm not sure that I'm ready for, I have to remind myself that God does not give us more than we can handle...
lately I have been wanting to get rid of anything in my life that is not from God, so I'm asked God to show me the things that I need to break free from, and to show me the things that I'm holding on to that I did not give to Him.

And show me He did!!

our God is faithful!!

He did not show me in the ways I expected or the things I expected..

my life was comfortable,
it was good,
it was easy,

I was living in a box...

I went to church and everything was there for me.
my friends, my family, and I got to spent time in worship with God.
I was comfortable living like this.
God showed me there's more to life than this...
and now that we attend another church, I have to make and effort to keep what's important to me- friends and family.
how much do my relationships mean to me, do they mean enough to me to set my things aside and make them work...
and yes I want to keep the relationships that I have build over the years.
so that was a flap open in my box.

and as I walk thru someone dear to me, and try to encourage them and get them to stay strong no matter what life throws at them. and to stand up and live out the role God gave them. it gets hard at times to not give up when they give up.
and then when God shows me things that come from that, things I need to face and break free from.
like physical touch...
I don't do well with that, I'm more comfortable just saying hi to someone, rather than walking across the room and giving them a hug.
and giving them a REAL hug too..
not just a off to the side hug that says nothing, but a hug that speaks love into their life, a hug that lets them know I care about their life. I love receiving those kinds of hugs!
I have a friend who every time I see her, that is the hug I receive... doesn't matter if we don't sit down and talk about life, I know she cares because of her hugs.
I want my daughter to grow up knowing what a hug or a touch feels like, I want her to be able to speak thru that when she has no words to describe the pain or joy she is feeling, I want physical touch to be a part of my family.

so that was another flap open in my box.

so when God showed me the things that I'm holding on to and need to overcome.
some days I would be totally ok with it, because I asked God to reveal them to me, and I know that victory follows!!
and then the next day I would dwell on it and get overwhelmed, thinking,
how can I get rid of all of this?
where do I begin?
if I get rid of this, am I ready for what's next?
and is it really that simple to just say, ok God I give it to you?
Gods grace and mercy is so big.
so YES its that simple!!! praise the Lord.

"that is why we never give up. though our bodies are dying, our spirits are being renewed every day. for our present troubles are small and won't last very long. yet they produce for us a glory that vastly out weighs them and will last forever." 2 Corinthians 4:16-17

and then this week God did not just open another flap in my box, He SHATTERED it!!!

I feel vulnerable before him,
humbled,
but not scared.
He has taken my comfort zones and shattered them, wanting me to take His hand and trust Him. trust Him to bring Joy, Love, Comfort, into my life. to lead me down a new path.
I now have put my whole trust in Him, because I know that what ever He brings out of this, I need His help, I can not do it on my own.
"when in doubt, just take the next small step"